My Long Journey Home: How the Acadian Exile Shaped My Life as a Therapist

Although attachment patterns and early relational interactions are very important in creating implicit and procedural memories, I contend, along with many authors (Gentile, 2010; Sucharov, 2012), that the historical, cultural, political, and social contexts give them meanings. Grounding myself in a relational systems theory of trauma and therapeutic healing (Brothers, 2008), I attempt to capture how a historic traumatic event in my ancestors' lives, the Acadian Deportation, has shaped and affected my life and work as a therapist. Different themes and meanings-for example, submission and surrender (Ghent, 1990), autonomy and liberation, and restorative efforts in the aftermath of trauma that involve the reduction of complexity (Brothers, 2008)-will be revealed as part of the legacy of the historical traumatic exile and return of my Acadian ancestors. After briefly describing the tragic history of the Acadian people, I retrace my own initiatory, and never completed, journey back home as an Acadian woman therapist, through traumatic submission and its active counterpart, the impulse to dominate. A brief vignette from my work with a patient serves to illustrate how my Acadian heritage is still an active and conflictual process for me.