Subject to/flesh, object/to verb (:) the business of naming

How do quotidian speech-acts, lived experiences, and normative grammars/logics capture affects of antiBlack racism that co-constitute campus memory and landscapes beyond infrastructure and spectacular commemoration of exceptional past events/historical figures? How does Black resistance to white supremacist university structures (un)fold with/in them? This experimental essay considers power dynamics inherent in complaint about antiBlackness at an historically white U.S. campus amid 2020's racialized pandemic violence. Through narrative-driven inter(con)textual reading, it toys with the politics of subject(ivity), t(h)inking through how names function rhetorically to reify what Hortense Spillers conjures as "American grammar," while wrestling (in-and-of itself) with onto-linguistic violence in re/membering trauma.