Experiencing the cycles of love in teaching: the praxis of an early career Asian American ELA teacher

PurposeEarly career teachers (ECTs) of Color are key in making change, resisting racism and pushing back against white supremacy in K-12 education, specifically in English Language Arts (ELA) classrooms. Through a narrative telling inquiry (Clandinin and Connelly, 2000) of Nora, an Asian American ELA ECT in the Midwest, and by drawing on Fisher's (2011) Critical Integral Pedagogy of Fearlessness, this study aims to recognize the narrative power within teaching praxis as Nora stories herself toward becoming a critical pedagogue.Design/methodology/approachUsing narrative inquiry methodology and methods (Clandinin and Connelly, 2000), the authors simultaneously considered the commonplace tenets of narrative inquiry - temporality, sociality and place - of the intertwined relationships of the participants and observers. The field texts included in the corpus of data include myriad tellings of Nora's experiences in her initial years of teaching ELA. Data were analyzed in stages of parsing out narrative blocks and structures.FindingsThe findings indicate that Nora, as an ECT, went through recursive cycles of fear as conceptualized by Fisher (2011) - bravery, courageousness and being fear-less - of working toward radical love (Hooks, 2000) within her ELA instruction. The authors argue that Nora confronted her personal and professional fears as she strove to become a critical pedagogue in her ELA classroom.Originality/valueCurrent scholarship portrays ECTs as lacking agency in their development and/or effectiveness in the classroom and little is said about Asian American ELA ECTs and critical instruction. The authors present Nora's counter-narrative to make visible what is right with ELA ECTs, specifically teachers of Color, as they transform their fear into courage to fight for educational equity.