Suppressing Memory and Knowledge: A Self-taught Pedagogy

This article contextualizes the significance of lived experience in relation to personal narratives and learning largely by examining Zainab Salbi's autobiography Between Two Worlds: Escape from Tyranny: Growing Up in the Shadow of Saddam. Discussing Salbi's education and personal life as the daughter of Saddam's private pilot, the article explores the learner's reluctance to share what Donald Winnicott calls 'the secret self'. This resistance on the part of the learner complicates the notion of communication as a therapeutic method that educators usually use as the bases for teaching and learning, as explicated by Alice Pitt. In Salbi's politicized world, she explains how suppressed memory and reluctance to express oneself are tools of survival that ultimately turn into a lifestyle inside and outside the classroom. By employing Winnicott's metaphor of hide and seek to demonstrate ambivalence in communication, this study explores how Salbi's experience as a woman with a suppressed personal history can culturally and psychologically be very similar to teachers and students who are reluctant to share their own memories. In effect, this paper examines the implications of suppressed memory and knowledge among reluctant learners for pedagogical practices worldwide.