Part travelogue, part memoir, part reflection on death and the camps of the Shoah, this article examines the psychological and sociological impact of traveling in Lithuania and Poland with a group of Wisconsin college students who attempted to better understand the cataclysmic events of Europe in the 1930s and 1940s. The article also explores what the author did and did not know about Judaism, Jews, and the Holocaust as a child and even as a young adult. The author's own mother's ashes add an even additional insight into this exploration of how ashes have shaped the author's memories of countless burials.