My Child and His Beautiful Body

This article derives from the physical markers of "non-belonging" associated with my female and ethnic body, which are strong markers of deficit power levels in mainstream academic discourses. It discusses the sense of dis "ease" experienced by academics who feel coerced to adopt positivist and scientific rationalist approaches to knowledge at the expense of personal voice. It explores through an autoethnography of a mother's gaze, how embodied modes of writing and inquiry can enable greater comfort in one's own skin.