"I'm not white": counter-stories from "mixed race" women navigating PhDs

PurposeThis paper critiques institutional whiteness and racial categorisation in UK higher education. This is done through the representation of the complex narratives of "mixed race" women navigating their PhD experiences in predominantly white institutions, when their identities have proximity to whiteness.Design/methodology/approachThis study introduces five vignettes of "mixed race" women, gathered from a wider study of 27 PhDs and early career researchers in UK higher education. The paper employs Yuval-Davis' framework of belonging and bell hooks' approach to chosen versus forced marginality to create a conceptual framework based on fluid agency and empowerment, recognising belonging as an ongoing process.FindingsThe findings reveal how "mixed race" women can occupy a liminal space between belonging to and rejecting racial categorisation, as they attempted to situate their self-identifications within the boundaries of institutional whiteness.Research limitations/implicationsThe study only utilises a small sample size of five counter-stories from a larger study on PhD career trajectories, limiting its empirical claims. It also only engages with "mixed race" women who have proximity to whiteness, encouraging research on different "mixed race" intersections.Practical implicationsThis paper encourages more discussion around "mixed race" experiences of UK higher education and critical engagement with higher education's reliance on statistical data to understand racialised communities.Originality/valueThis paper contributes new empirical insights into how whiteness is experienced when "mixed race" women negotiate their relation to it in UK higher education. It also provides theoretical advancements into understanding of institutional whiteness and critically engages with racial categorisation.